For Our Eyes to See

I don’t remember where I took this, I just remember it was during a miserable time in my life. I had just moved back home and was trying to save up to do another stint a college that was gonna put me even farther in debt. I had absolutely zero ideas as to what it is I wanted to do with my life, and honestly still don’t, really. But for whatever reason I thought going back to school was the right call.

I think I was probably longing a bit for some social interacting, I tend to be pretty fine on my own, and I sometimes end up a bit stir crazy without realizing it. I knew I wanted something more though, I wanted to get my life on track. To do that I had to organize my thoughts, and the best way for me to do that it by going on walks, long walks, Hikes sometimes. I just remember that this hike, the whether didn’t know what it wanted to do. It was sunny, then cloudy, then raining, then sunny again. But I just remember looking up at one point as I exhaled my drag from the joint I was smoking and saw this view; and it made me feel so free.

Who knows, maybe I’m weird, but I have always found watching tree top sway in the wind to be so captivating. I’ve known for the longest time that whatever it is I’m gonna do with my life, it’s not gonna be a job in an office, it going to be something hands on, something maybe in nature, or at least outdoors. I know now that I mentioned that I was smoking a joint, folks reading this might now thinking of me was just your typical stoner, but honestly, I don’t think enough people “stop to smell the roses” anymore. To embrace what our eyes and other senses can see. I remember in high school, I caught a lot of flake for being “lazy”, and when I would bring up how adults would always say things like “enjoy it while you can”, etc, that that’s exactly what I’m doing. I’m enjoying it, I’m taking my time. To quote a great musician, “Where's the fire, what's the hurry about? You better cool it off before you burn it out” (Billy Joel, Vienna). But the teachers always acted like that was an excuse just to be lazy.

Again, I don’t know, maybe I am the weird one. But I do enjoy taking that extra couple sends to look a beautiful scene.